William John Keenan

My beloved dad and my one true best friend. My dad died of an uncommon allergic reaction to something in medicine he was given for his leg cramps, which slowly shut down all of his vital organs. I saw him 5 months before he died, that was the last time i ever saw him, a few days after my birthday and not long before his. The image of how he was when i saw him still haunts me. He wasnt the person i had grown up with, my best friend was nearly unrecognizable, he had gained lots of weight and was no longer the skinny twig that gave the best hugs ever despite his lack of body fat. He had great difficulty breathing and had to remain downstairs in the sitting room, in a bed as he couldnt breath upstairs due to the air being thinner. The illness took hold of him for over a year. And i saw him once over it. I never got a chance to say goodbye and tell him how much i loved him. I couldnt have asked for a better father or a better friend. He was always there for me, supporting me in anyway possible, never showing me anything but love. We always did things together even if it was just going shopping. But i wouldnt change any of the moments i had with him because each and every one was perfect. I regret one thing and one thing only, never telling him how much i truly cared for him. I only managed to do this when it was all too late and i was stood watching as everyone said their final goodbyes. If i could make it so i had told him everything to his face, told him how much i loved and cared for him and how he was and always will be my one true best friend. I would. I still think about him every day and every night before i go to sleep. I wish i could have him back, to get rid of this empty feeling inside. But i cant, despite how many times i beg to be in his arms, i never will be. And all that i ask is that he's at peace and that he will be proud of me, whatever may happen in my life and what i make of it. And that everyday your loved ones are reminded of how much they mean to you. Because what isnt said before its too late, you will regret it all the time